Piron - txt me when youre home so i know youre not lost, beanapped, or passed through a wormhole to a parallel dimension, k?
Me - Wormhole? but how wld i fit?
Piron - Youd be sucked through and streched to the size of a pasghetti noodle
Me - Wld u still date me if i looked like a stretche out tape worm. I wld be so tall i cld pick he freshest apples that rest ontop of the apple tree for you.
Piron - Yeah that would be cool but you would probably still ask me if i thought you werent skinny enough.
Me - If i was a tape worm i wld sliver inside ur bum where i wld spend my days in the cutest part of ur manly bod ur adorable lil boy bum, thatda be de life.
Piron - Baby youre so silly i wish you were my pet tape worm i would call you ike
Me - But i wldn be much of a per baby i wld be living in ur bum tech in ur stomach eating all ur plain food u eat an then u wld look like a stick an i wld feel bad eating all ur food but i wldnt be able to help it bc i wld need to eat it the u wld have to kill me bc u wld be starving. thatd be such a tragic love story.
Monday work, Tuesday work, Wensday work, Thurseday work, Friday work, Saturday work, live at work. I cant fall asleep tell 2 or 3 am every night or i should say day. my mind juggles with all the things i need to accomplish all the money i cant spend all these new responsiblities im picking up. I sound crazy as i work these issues out with my self, talking aloud and scribbling random numbers down hoping they add up to make sense. I cant seem to get out of bed, my body hurts my eyes swollen shut but i dont go back to sleep i just cant motivate myself to get out of bed and do the same thing ive been doing sense last year. Im not excited anymore for this malaysia trip, i dont think anything will be ready for me to go, im so behind. Its very stupid i know it is i feel sorry how stupid i sound when i say growing up is scary. responsablities are scary. i feel so tiny, weak holding so many heavy things above me, leting one thing fall is allowing everything to crash down, to fail. i make you angry when i cry when i get upset overwhelmed. i cant get to the point there is no point, theres nothing to fix to tell you to fix. im just scared. i dont want to grow up i want to be held by you i want u to tell me im okay and it is scary but im doing i good job and that you can see me progressing, no matter how slow i go no matter if no one else can see it that you can and you burry my head into you chest. i love you so much an i get mad when im not doing my best to love you and when your not doing your best to love me. when will everything be perfect. use living in our house together living comfertable.
i hate numbers, i mean i hate numbers when there associated with money. money and i have a hate love relationship, when i have your beautiful green skin in my sweaty cold fingertips i instantly send you off to another home of sweaty dirty hands. i hate giving you up.
Spencer said ten dollars a day will get us our round trip to Malaysia, i fucking hope hes right..
i really need to pull this off.
i really need to be free for three weeks with you. i become to worked up about this trip that seems to unbelievable. i work my self up so much i become exhausted about even thinking about it.
i have so much i need to do! buckle down aubre already.
Jesus were to begin.
PLANE TICKET$1300 (we both need to save $650 (hence the $10 a day)) SPENDING CASH $400each (or maybe a little less) PASSPORT$90 to $100
those are the essentials that must be done before JUNE 1ST
and while i must save for all of this we have the MOVING OUT phase that is predicted to happen at the end of march.
TWO OPTIONS OPTION ONE Adams old house = free rent, perfect size but all depends if he moves to SANFRAN. and there’s the question of if he does get the job, congrats to you, when he will be moving out. OPTION TWO the house = $400 a month, two bedroom one bath, roommate will be cheaper, renters, known fact, will be moving out at end of march, but lets be realistic i cant afford this trip to Malaysia, my car bill and rent. this will only be a option for after the trip.
so im really wanting adams place. best option. GO OPTION NUMBA ONE!!
and then i must think about getting a second job or working my ass off at my on i have. I’m just ganna work my ass, to lazy to go job hunting.
three weeks, away from Arizona, parents , responsibilities, work, bills, drama. me and you just chilling in Malaysia laying on the beach strollin through the city.
With each of your breaths crashing together creating a storm until the thunder could no longer hold, oh what a clattered it made, o how you invented this weather and didn’t understand that rain would only remain.